Title: Can you see me? Do you know me?
Medium: Acrylic on Canvas
Size: 8 x 10 inches
Artist: betsisanders 09
I once got an email that had about fifty questions, the purpose of which was to learn more about me, who I am, what I am, who I like , what I like , what I do, what I think or feel, etc.....
There was this question... "Do you use sarcasm?" My answer, "Yes, I do and I use sarcasm a lot!" I further added that "I like it when I see the facial expressions of people when they react to my taunting, ironic and caustic remarks. It is sort of like a game for me, a practical joke." But most people, specially those who do not know me, get 'turned off', irritated or even angry at me.
" I bark... and I bark lot! I don't bite!" I speak my mind, am brutally frank, blunt, straight forward." My criticisms are often taken as offensive, never constructive. It's probably my tone of voice, or how my eyes get bigger when I express my opinions. I remember a teacher in high school who was annoyed at me, because of how I looked at her, or how my eyes seemed to just pierce right through her, and the word she used was "IRAP"... umiirap daw ako!!!
I once asked a classmate in dentistry to describe me in one word. He said, "Friend". If I am described by this person as a friend, then why do some people hate me?
I am often called "Mother" by the girls I used to hang out with... and just recently, a travel mate also said I was motherly. Another friend in FB said that since grade school, she had always known that I had a nurturing soul, if there was such a term.
Then, why did I have a falling out of sorts with some old friends. Those friends who have lost the R (respect) and have turned into fiends. It is because I have stopped loving them. I have stopped being their friend. I have realized that I was only useful to them... so, I stopped loving them.
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Would you approach a dog that barks loudly at you? Would you stroke his fur if his barking never stops? You wouldn't. You would turn away and walk away. But if you knew the dog, even if it barks all day, you would smile at her, pat her back and even give her a doggie treat.
Do you know me? You only hear the loud barks.
It's weird that I am comparing myself to a dog. A dog will keep you company, wag her tail, jump, leap at the sight of her master, her friend, will risk her life to protect her best friend.
>>>
Can you see me? Do you know me? I am a loving wife, a caring mother, a dentist by profession and an aspiring visual artist. What if all these roles are taken away, stripped away, and I am taken apart...? What if I am exposed, dismantled, then who would I be? The answer is,, I am a simple soul.
The word soul is derived from the word "saiwala", or that belonging to the sea. Saiwa means sea. It was believed that souls originated in and will return to the sea.
I am a soul, an entity or spiritual being inside my physical being, the only authentic part of my self, the real me. So, can you see me? Do you know the real me? I am seen thru my simple paintings and read through my blogs, where I am devoid of pretensions, without the eccentricities... bare, naked... where my truth is revealed... I have named my soul, betsisanders.
>>>
May I quote... "there's a constant level of closeness that I really need from the person that I love.. it just destroys me not to be able to count on that affection when I need it..." ... taken from the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. The author was writing about her husband whom she recently divorced. She said that he was "always disappearing in the room, the bed, even from the planet".
In all relationships, between husbands and wives, siblings, parents and children, even among friends... there is this degree of expectation. A constant need for love to be reciprocated and it hurts when this love is not returned. They say... love begets love, kindness begets kindness. When one gives affection, it is expected that this affection be returned, if not, the relationship suffers and eventually ends.
When one receives a greeting, one is expected to reply. If one says hello, then the other one says hi. If you receive a text message, you are expected to be polite enough to acknowledge receipt of the SMS. If you get an email, you are somehow expected to email back. If you get a present on your birthday, or receive a birthday card, you are expected to at least say thank you. If you are given free medical services by your physician, you send him gifts at Christmas. If your dentist gives your son free orthodontic treatment, won't your dentist expect a simple thank you from you? That isn't too much to ask ... but somehow, the free orthodontic treatment was terminated!.... reason, does not want to abuse? but haven't you used her kindness by accepting the treatment in the first place? it simply meant,,,, thanks but no thanks!!! ... unappreciative, ungrateful....
>>>
"Nokia...connects people..." the age of technology, where friends and family are better 'connected', thru text, email, voice mail even thru the web cam. But how often do you say hello to your parents, your aunts and uncles, your sisters or brothers, or your friends? ..and there is always the old system of snail mail.
Technology tries to make it easier for people to c0nnect, but why is it that people just seem to be so distant, disconnected, not interested or simply just ABSENT from each others' lives.
Years , not just months have passed. ... and soon, you'll realize that it is too late. The friendship has ended. The affection taken for granted. The love has waned, become less intense, has gradually reached a point when it is totally inexistent. ..or the person has passed on...
>>>
FACEBOOK.... the latest, most popular networking site. Its aim is ' to connect ' people, to find old friends, to reestablish long lost relationships & friendships... a forum for discussions on anything,,, life, love even politics.. but it is, for me, a medium to express and tell the entire WWW (world wide web) about one's self... it is I, ME, MYSELF... and for those curious individuals, or a better term would be, appreciative individuals... who like to see, learn and know you better... this is the best networking site so far.
So, if you are reading this... then you are just like me... you ask the same questions as I do...Can you see me? Do you know me?
...............
There was this question... "Do you use sarcasm?" My answer, "Yes, I do and I use sarcasm a lot!" I further added that "I like it when I see the facial expressions of people when they react to my taunting, ironic and caustic remarks. It is sort of like a game for me, a practical joke." But most people, specially those who do not know me, get 'turned off', irritated or even angry at me.
" I bark... and I bark lot! I don't bite!" I speak my mind, am brutally frank, blunt, straight forward." My criticisms are often taken as offensive, never constructive. It's probably my tone of voice, or how my eyes get bigger when I express my opinions. I remember a teacher in high school who was annoyed at me, because of how I looked at her, or how my eyes seemed to just pierce right through her, and the word she used was "IRAP"... umiirap daw ako!!!
I once asked a classmate in dentistry to describe me in one word. He said, "Friend". If I am described by this person as a friend, then why do some people hate me?
I am often called "Mother" by the girls I used to hang out with... and just recently, a travel mate also said I was motherly. Another friend in FB said that since grade school, she had always known that I had a nurturing soul, if there was such a term.
Then, why did I have a falling out of sorts with some old friends. Those friends who have lost the R (respect) and have turned into fiends. It is because I have stopped loving them. I have stopped being their friend. I have realized that I was only useful to them... so, I stopped loving them.
>>>
Would you approach a dog that barks loudly at you? Would you stroke his fur if his barking never stops? You wouldn't. You would turn away and walk away. But if you knew the dog, even if it barks all day, you would smile at her, pat her back and even give her a doggie treat.
Do you know me? You only hear the loud barks.
It's weird that I am comparing myself to a dog. A dog will keep you company, wag her tail, jump, leap at the sight of her master, her friend, will risk her life to protect her best friend.
>>>
Can you see me? Do you know me? I am a loving wife, a caring mother, a dentist by profession and an aspiring visual artist. What if all these roles are taken away, stripped away, and I am taken apart...? What if I am exposed, dismantled, then who would I be? The answer is,, I am a simple soul.
The word soul is derived from the word "saiwala", or that belonging to the sea. Saiwa means sea. It was believed that souls originated in and will return to the sea.
I am a soul, an entity or spiritual being inside my physical being, the only authentic part of my self, the real me. So, can you see me? Do you know the real me? I am seen thru my simple paintings and read through my blogs, where I am devoid of pretensions, without the eccentricities... bare, naked... where my truth is revealed... I have named my soul, betsisanders.
>>>
May I quote... "there's a constant level of closeness that I really need from the person that I love.. it just destroys me not to be able to count on that affection when I need it..." ... taken from the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. The author was writing about her husband whom she recently divorced. She said that he was "always disappearing in the room, the bed, even from the planet".
In all relationships, between husbands and wives, siblings, parents and children, even among friends... there is this degree of expectation. A constant need for love to be reciprocated and it hurts when this love is not returned. They say... love begets love, kindness begets kindness. When one gives affection, it is expected that this affection be returned, if not, the relationship suffers and eventually ends.
When one receives a greeting, one is expected to reply. If one says hello, then the other one says hi. If you receive a text message, you are expected to be polite enough to acknowledge receipt of the SMS. If you get an email, you are somehow expected to email back. If you get a present on your birthday, or receive a birthday card, you are expected to at least say thank you. If you are given free medical services by your physician, you send him gifts at Christmas. If your dentist gives your son free orthodontic treatment, won't your dentist expect a simple thank you from you? That isn't too much to ask ... but somehow, the free orthodontic treatment was terminated!.... reason, does not want to abuse? but haven't you used her kindness by accepting the treatment in the first place? it simply meant,,,, thanks but no thanks!!! ... unappreciative, ungrateful....
>>>
"Nokia...connects people..." the age of technology, where friends and family are better 'connected', thru text, email, voice mail even thru the web cam. But how often do you say hello to your parents, your aunts and uncles, your sisters or brothers, or your friends? ..and there is always the old system of snail mail.
Technology tries to make it easier for people to c0nnect, but why is it that people just seem to be so distant, disconnected, not interested or simply just ABSENT from each others' lives.
Years , not just months have passed. ... and soon, you'll realize that it is too late. The friendship has ended. The affection taken for granted. The love has waned, become less intense, has gradually reached a point when it is totally inexistent. ..or the person has passed on...
>>>
FACEBOOK.... the latest, most popular networking site. Its aim is ' to connect ' people, to find old friends, to reestablish long lost relationships & friendships... a forum for discussions on anything,,, life, love even politics.. but it is, for me, a medium to express and tell the entire WWW (world wide web) about one's self... it is I, ME, MYSELF... and for those curious individuals, or a better term would be, appreciative individuals... who like to see, learn and know you better... this is the best networking site so far.
So, if you are reading this... then you are just like me... you ask the same questions as I do...Can you see me? Do you know me?
...............
Life is short, but life goes on and on... can you see me?
Live, love and always be happy. .... betsisanders 09
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