Birthday Blog 2014

I turned another year older and I thank God for the years, spent with people I love and love me back. There are even some good friends who love me more and those two handsome boys who love me most.

More than half of my life is over. I don’t intend to sound grim but the bottom line is, I don’t think that I’d live for another ten, twenty or more years.  Even if the genes that come from my father’s side of the family make it possible for my uncle, aunt and my Dad to live really long lives.

My uncle (according to my cousins) is a hundred years old. He lives in Nueva Ecija.  I wouldn’t be surprised if one day GMA7 or ABS-CBN will feature him in their documentaries. An Aunt is ninety eight (98) years old and my Dad is eighty four (84).  My grandmother died in 1983. She was probably ninety nine (99). She used to say that she was fourteen (14) when Dr. Jose Rizal died in 1898. 

I've changed the color of the curtains in my bedroom to orange, yellow and red.  Every morning (or noon), I am greeted by bright sunlight. I say to myself, “Good morning betsisanders … wake up, show up and be thankful for another beautiful day, another chance to make things right, another opportunity to create, and another moment to be happy. Be kind. Always be grateful and share your blessings. If you fail today, try again tomorrow.” As each day ends, it is one more day closer to the day that I will leave you all behind.

When that time comes, please… “DNR… no heroics for me please. Let me go with the flow of life. Let me follow where the light leads me to.  Let me go peacefully through the night, with grace and dignity.  Do Not Resuscitate.  If you love me, you will do this for me.”  [I think I wrote this. It was dated January 22, 2014, at dawn. I searched google if someone else wrote it but there were no matches. So, I probably wrote it during the wee hours of the morning. If I didn't, then thanks to whoever wrote it.]

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This was taken from a Facebook post of one of my favorite authors.

I am not afraid to be who I am. I try not to hurt anyone but if others are offended by what I say or do, then so be it.  I will  be happy, content and peaceful.  A friend wrote to me on my birthday and she said, "In the end of our life, it will only be between you and God." 

 / betsisanders 2014

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Saw this picture when I read Buzz Feed's article.

http://www.buzzfeed.com/alanwhite/27-deep-dark-fears-that-will-make-your-skin-crawl

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Good night betsisanders.