Closed Door, an acrylic painting by betsisanders 2017

Title:  Closed Door

Size:  8 x 11 inches

Medium:  Acrylic on Canvas

Artist:  betsianders 2017

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" Only these precious smiles are important to me.

Nothing else matters." (betsisanders 2017)

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We were in Palawan last week.  This trip has been planned

early last year and this is our fourth time in Palawan.  

Last time was  January 2015 in El Nido.

It's because of this trip that I missed attending our 

high school class reunion over the weekend. 

It irks me to hear that someone would say that

 I intentionally chose this date to go on a vacation 

with my family just so I wouldn't attend that reunion.

No dearie ... you are soooo wrong!

Travel dates are dependent on factors like

low season / promo fares and  birthdays or anniversaries.

But if you still think that I chose these dates on purpose,

then so be it!!!  I'd rather be with those people who love 

me most than spend an afternoon with people I hardly

know or those I have chosen to walk away from.

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Paulo Coelho wrote:

"Close some doors

Not because of pride, incapacity

or arrogance, 

but simply because 

they no longer lead somewhere."

And may I quote myself...

I've been hurt many times.

Cut the cords.

I turned my back, walked away,

closed doors, bolted them and 

kept them shut.

I've mellowed down.

Not feisty nor fierce anymore.

That's what I tell friends, those

ones I have chosen to stay.

I value my peace of mind.

I love myself more.

I respect me.

I will close my door again...

quietly... (I hope...)

But I have this urge to slam it first.

Sigh ...  they just aren't worth my time

and my love.

I will keep them in my heart

.... not in my life.

(written on November 2015)

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