Title: The Sunflower Lady
Medium: Watercolor on Paper
Size: 8 x 11 inches
This painting was exhibited last March 2009 and it was sold on opening night. I have made 4 other versions of The Sunflower Lady and have given them to special people in my life. Those wonderful individuals who appreciate what I do. Those great friends who value my friendship and have chosen to accept and love me unconditionally.
The lady in this painting is carefree, fun loving, always having a great time, love to party, love to dance, is never afraid to expose her real self, is confident with herself, and has a great future ahead of her. The lady is me... should I say , was me, during my younger years, where i was daring, strong, ambitious, and having fun all the time, partying, dancing, drinking, .... did everything my mother told me not to do. This was me, many years ago. All that is left now are the fond memories of party time, dancing at Coco Banana until dawn, drinking scotch on the rocks in high ball glasses, smoking, ... just simply having FUN. I thought this was the kind of life that I would enjoy forever.
The other day, I went with my old 'drinking buddies' and Coco Banana party crowd to watch 8 Track Band at Strumm's, Makati. It was just like the good old days. Non-stop party music. Couples dancing the swing, my favorite! Girls jumping around, having a great great time. I had a good time too, by simply watching all of them have fun. I simply enjoyed the music, dance music from the late 70's to early 90's. I was surprised to feel good despite the fact that I didn't drink a drop of alcohol nor did I go to the dance floor. I watched my friend while he played the keyboard. He smiled and I waved.
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But the parties had to end. I thought that having fun gave meaning to my life and that kind of fun equaled happiness. --- I used to come home tired, tipsy, sometimes drunk, during my younger days. I wanted more of the fun, but it had to end. I was back in my room with only me and alone.
But the other night, coming home from Strumm's... I came home smiling, relaxed and felt good. I actually had a good time, and going home, being alone or simply 'being' ...was good, was enough, or more than enough.
Realized that happiness is never found outside the self, never found in other people, never found in parties.... happiness is in me, has always been inside me, I just had to choose happiness, and by being still and simple, I have found what I have always searched for in my life.
Live, love and be happy.... by betsisanders
The lady in this painting is carefree, fun loving, always having a great time, love to party, love to dance, is never afraid to expose her real self, is confident with herself, and has a great future ahead of her. The lady is me... should I say , was me, during my younger years, where i was daring, strong, ambitious, and having fun all the time, partying, dancing, drinking, .... did everything my mother told me not to do. This was me, many years ago. All that is left now are the fond memories of party time, dancing at Coco Banana until dawn, drinking scotch on the rocks in high ball glasses, smoking, ... just simply having FUN. I thought this was the kind of life that I would enjoy forever.
The other day, I went with my old 'drinking buddies' and Coco Banana party crowd to watch 8 Track Band at Strumm's, Makati. It was just like the good old days. Non-stop party music. Couples dancing the swing, my favorite! Girls jumping around, having a great great time. I had a good time too, by simply watching all of them have fun. I simply enjoyed the music, dance music from the late 70's to early 90's. I was surprised to feel good despite the fact that I didn't drink a drop of alcohol nor did I go to the dance floor. I watched my friend while he played the keyboard. He smiled and I waved.
********
But the parties had to end. I thought that having fun gave meaning to my life and that kind of fun equaled happiness. --- I used to come home tired, tipsy, sometimes drunk, during my younger days. I wanted more of the fun, but it had to end. I was back in my room with only me and alone.
But the other night, coming home from Strumm's... I came home smiling, relaxed and felt good. I actually had a good time, and going home, being alone or simply 'being' ...was good, was enough, or more than enough.
Realized that happiness is never found outside the self, never found in other people, never found in parties.... happiness is in me, has always been inside me, I just had to choose happiness, and by being still and simple, I have found what I have always searched for in my life.
Live, love and be happy.... by betsisanders
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