My Life's Abstractions / Part 5

Title: I Forgive You
Medium: Acrylic on Canvas
Part 5 of 8... of My Life's Abstractions

“Some people are like slinkies --- not really good for anything, but they bring a smile on your face when pushed down the stairs.' ...MEAN.... yes. I'm sure you feel the same way about your frenemies and they feel the same way about you too.

This is just a monstrous thought, a harmless funny thought. You can just laugh at it. No further action is necessary. You have released your emotions and then you can simply go back to what you were doing. .. or you can choose to forgive.

“to forgive and be forgiven” is maturity. I have been enslaved by deep hurts and have built up walls or fortresses of unforgiveness. While my frenemies, the unforgiven, just got up and go... they brushed off the dust of unforgiveness and went on with their lives.

I choose to forgive ..not to benefit others but to do myself the favor of walking away, to be free from the pain and release them all to Him,, who is the ultimate judge.

This is what I intend to do....Forgiveness is easier said than done.... but I will try this. I forgive you for the damage that you have done. I forgive you for the pain that you have caused me. I forgive you for taking advantage of my kindness. I forgive you for all the lies you have told about me. I forgive you not loving me back. I forgive you for the relationship that had been severely damaged.

I will say this over and over. I will repeat it over and over when I am alone. At first it will just be on the mind level. The hurt and the bad memories still remain in my bones, blood and cells. It needs only a small nudge for the resentment and hurt to surface once again....Only a shift in perception can finally excise it....if I fail today, I will start again tomorrow. I will call on the universe until it helps me to forgive and to let go, until the pain and the hurt will cease to exist.

(Portions of this was taken from an article I read last Sunday, written by Ms. Gilda Cordero-Fernando. Thank you Madam, you helped me a lot with what you wrote and as I publish this blog, others may benefit from it too.)