Self Worth... at midnight

Work, by definition, is an activity that involves mental or

physical effort which is done to achieve a purpose or a result.

Work has always been related to making a living, like 

having a job, occupation, employment or business.

Work also means a task undertaken by a person.

Work is something done or made, as a result of a one's actions.

Work is a lot of things, but most importantly,

........  it is about self worth.

There are twenty four hours in a day.  About an eighth of

each day is spent grooming ourselves. Another eighth is spent 

nourishing our bodies. Three eighths is spent at the office or

in school, or doing chores at home. Another two eights is spent sleeping.

We are left with just one eighth, that is three hours.

Most people spend these three hours exercising, talking on the phone,

playing games or wasting time in Facebook, Twitter or Instagram.

Then soon realize that another day is over, and ask,

"What have I done today that is important?"

This is how my ordinary day is spent:

3/24  grooming activities

3/24 nourishing the body

3/24 cooking, baking, cleaning

9/24  lying on the bed, not necessarily sleeping

6/24 reading, writing, painting, blogging

or watching DVD.

....  and these last six hours start from 10 pm until 4 am.

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Nothing, no one,  disturbs my peace at midnight.  

No phone calls to answer, no text messages to reply to,

no TV shows to watch, all chores done,

Hubby and Son safe and sound asleep. 

It's at midnight that I am totally at peace.

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But there are days when I find myself in my bed,

with the curtains drawn, only the soft hum of the

air conditioning is heard and the meaningless chatter of  

noontime TV hosts disturb the deafening silence. 

I patiently wait for the end of the day, for midnight to come.

Only then am I able to be completely at peace,

where I read, write, paint or blog. 

Only then do I feel my worth, my self worth.

It is in solitude that I am productive, peaceful, 

important and completely happy.

My life is not measured by great achievements, but of 

several small things that give meaning to my life. 

Small acts of kindness, happy thoughts,

memorable moments spent with the two 

wonderful boys in my life, and a tranquil peaceful

state of mind that make my life significant.

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It's probably taking my brain a little longer to process

complete forgiveness, but I am getting there

and hopefully get even.

I just have to remind myself that I am important and loved.

 Self worth... a great reminder about self worth is that

I always have it and no one can take it away from me.

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/ betsisanders 2013