Why are we not friends ... anymore?
I've met a lot of people in my life, yet, I only consider a few as close friends. There are a few hundreds who have stayed in my list of FB friends. I deleted some two hundred a few years back and restricted about fifty from my present list.
I could probably be close to some new people and it would be good or even great. But somehow, I am not capable of adding new friends in my life. These are some of the reasons why:
* You live, well, at the other side of town. That wouldn't be convenient for you or for me to see each other often.
* You are so much older, like 15 years older, than I am and I don't want to be your caregiver, your "lady-in waiting", personal assistant, driver and yaya anymore.
* You are younger by a lot of years. I don't want a caregiver and don't want to look like your mother when we hang out,
* You and I don't share childhood memories, teenage mischief or college gimmicks.
* You and I have had a "falling out" of sorts... Falling out of love would be apt.
* You and I do not share the same religious views.
* You deleted me in Facebook. I wonder why? You probably saw pictures of your ex- boyfriend with me. Hey, he was my classmate. Why hold it against me?
Hmmmmm .... I have friends only because we became buddies when I was much younger, when I was more optimistic towards life, when I needed to belong, be part of a group, when I needed to socialize. At my age, I don't need a lot, don't want anything more, and do not hope much. I treasure silence. I crave for solitude. I enjoy my 'me' time.
I am most comfortable with my old friends. They accept and tolerate my moods. They know when I can be 'noisy' with them. They also know when to take a step back, give me space, and not text or call before noon. Someday,hopefully soonest, I'll maybe call you. In the meantime, I look forward to our next 'superficial' encounter. ... Hee hee hee ... So .... I'll see you when I see you. Probably in my next life.
/ betsisanders 2013
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